Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in pattyhead's LiveJournal:

Thursday, April 10th, 2003
2:19 pm	ima vagina girls suck, mainly cause i'm to scared to talk to the ones i like and i'm just all in all a vagina. well thats all i got to say considering i haven't written in here for about FOREVER. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 16th, 2002
8:22 am	since i've last written since i've last written i had finally got things right with that girl i was talking about in my journals i had a crush on. i finally had told her how i felt i left a rose in her locker with a note asking her out and she said yes. before in my journals i hated me and i was very depressed. but when i was with this girl all my problems went away i was no longer depressed the only thing that i was worrying about was the thought of losing her. well about three weeks later her and i were having some dificulties i was overreacting that she wasn't spending enough time with me cause i'm a paranoid freak and really i probably scared her away i got to weird and i'm sorry. and i started to get mad cause it seemed i was asking if she could do anything when she had her free time but she was always busy doing something and at the time i knew she was having some problems but i became conseited again and began thinking about only myself and i told her to make a descision, to see if she has the time to go out with me or not and later that week we broke up she decided she didn't have the time. look at what i did cause i lost girl who i loved and cared about so much and i feel terrible but i'm so lucky that i didn't fuck anything up completely cause were still friends but everytime i'm around her i wanna tell how i really feel about her and beg her to take me back. but what do you know maybe it was for the best i could have been hurt later and worse. but you know what i wanted to take that chance. i hope she knows that i really care abuot her and i would never ever hurt her she means to much well thats my journal for today so i'll write something later bye (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 27th, 2002
10:02 am	i'm confused out of my mind i'm really confused cause i still like this girl and i'm not sure if i really do like this girl or not. i mean i'm pretty sure i do cause i really cant think of anything wrong with her, except she doesn't like me. i'm not obsessed over her it's just i like to talk about things i'm confused about. i've come to the decision that i'm going just be polite and friendly. and if anything happens then great and nothing happens well i have a new good friend so either way itsa win win situation. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 21st, 2002
9:57 am	i've been talking to this girl i go to school. i've been getting to know her and she's great, she's fun to talk to. at first i was friends with her but now i'm very attracted to her. i hope i don't screw things up like i usually do i always say something stupid or wrong. i'm just being wierd i'll do all i can to not screw up. thanx for reading see yall later Current Mood: flirty (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 20th, 2002
4:53 am	i'm feeling good today has been the only ok day i've had in a week (Comment on this)
Friday, October 18th, 2002
6:40 am	i hate my medicine i take this medicine for my ADD and it really sux balls. it doesn't help my social problems either. it's doing worse things than good things. it make me uninteresting, irratable, mean, sad, adn depressed. so i hate ADD lizzy, kate,leigh ann and alicia are being mean again they take from me and take from me but really wut do they do for me (nuttin) they just sit there and point out my bad qualities and make fun of me. jesus i don't know if this is me talking or the medicine. but all i know is i'm starting to realize things like that i'm not the only concieted one we all are especially some of my friends but i cant talk casue i'm very concieted myself. maybe i should start thinking more about people who care about me. cause really i have never been best-friends with someone where they care about me and hang out with me all the time i just have friends for a while and then we grow apart maybe it's me cause i'm annoying or maybe i have a fear of commitment. i can berely handle my life wut makes me think i can handle anothers so i push a really great person away. lately i've been good i've have alot of friends who care but sometimes they have to realize their not the center of the universe. please tell me to shut up i don't know wut i just wrote. fuck it i'm pissed. i'm really mad at kate, lizzy, leigh ann, adn alicia i told them things and showed them things that i'd never show anyone else but they go on that day i showed them something that i jsut don't show people (except u know) they say mean things to me wut the fuck is ur guys problems. Current Mood: pissed off (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 17th, 2002
5:08 am	i hate people right now i'm in a quiry i like two girls at the moment they are great girls. i like them but there's more. i cannot go after either of them without hurting friends. but if you read my last journal u'd know that i'm not going to go after them. cause my friends are more important. yeah it really sucks i like these girls alot. but whatever i love my friends a whole lot more. for the last couple of days i've been taking new medication and i hate it. it makes me depressed adn very irratated so don't be mad at me its the drugs talking not good ol' pattyhead. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 16th, 2002
11:17 am	my realization today me and my great friend got in a fight and it was terrible. and this fight got to me realize that i'm a terrible person all i really care about is my self. i'm concieted i would hurt my friends for girls, and choose a girl that i would hook up with once instead a friend for life. how terrible is that,and ontop of that i'm a dick, and asshole. and this fight made me realize that i had no reason to be mad at anyone. i should be so lucky to have friends like the ones i do. vince, lizzy, joey, they're nuttin but nice to me. i should apologize to them instead of getting mad at lizzy, and being a dick to vince and well i've pretty nice to joey. (2 Comments |Comment on this)